High pursuits, the chase, the speeding wheels, the turn down the dark alley, fleeing, the approach, the noise, the reverse move, the drive in the lane, slowly, your hiding in the rubbish, breath shaking, the steps get closer, the door of the car closes, the click of the pistol, is it your time, then you suddenly wake up, sigh, the sweat on your face, the deep breath, still there, alive, another day ahead of you, you don’t want to dream like that again, but it wasn’t a dream. The terror, the inability to sleep, how can you find rest, where do you escape to, your not able to do anything on your own, the thought, and then the relief, it was only a nightmare, the hands have feeling, your spine in tingling, your surprise at that, there is supposed to be no feeling there at all, is something happening, the angst turns to joy, it’s going to be alright.
Powerlessness, having no point of view that’s listened to, your opinions, well, fodder really, unless someone ahead of you has need for it, the promotion, always given to those who do the organisation thing,. play by the rules, your inner well being, undermined, soul destroying, is there any relief from this inner tyranny your experiencing. Even the phone is no longer the friend you thought it was, those numbers, you begin to doubt everything, and when your loaded with interests adds, the habits of your phone, it’s no getaway either, as if your life has been planned for you, is there no escape.
The hospital ward, the smell of disinfectant, the leather shoes on the tiles, the clickity clack, the sound a familiar one, the patient waits for the door to open, the mood begins to cheer up, someone who will treat you like a living human being, not someone they are making arrangements for, when the life on this earth ends, no, your Spirit friend treats you like your living, your useful, worthy in other words. Spirit to Spirit, a different dialogue takes place, no thoughts about illness or cure, no whispered words in the ear, no, you are treated like a Spirit, the Spirit that lives for ever, and you respond accordingly, amen.
Those who believe in the Eternal world, are not thinking about passing from this life to another, this is life, today, today matters, today. With choices, we go down culdesac’s, or we chase others down culdesac’s, we get stuck, we have trouble turning around, apologizing, we sometimes prefer to remain stubborn, for any amount of reasons. In short, there is only the teaching that leaves you wanting more, and that is the words of Jesus, living words, why so, because you have to live them, they are alive, and when you speak in terms of that Spirit, you bring with you life, amen. not a culdesac.